Good Friends, Bonnie Raitt, Contemplating School again and Kids Moving Back Home

I’m learning a lot in my new job because I’ve been thrown into the deep end of the pool and this department is a mess.  The last manager didn’t really bother to track a lot of important things for all the grant funds that we (the department) is responsible for.   Our funding agency NASA is a huge player in funding a lot of programs across the country and we need to stay in their good graces to keep getting funded.  But the last manager wasn’t really too well versed in how to handle grant funds and it shows now since I’ve been looking into files going back a year.  It’s a fucking mess but even more so, Phoebe and I are left to clean up that mess.  But my boss is confident that we can and will straighten everything out.  At least that’s what he told me this morning.

Good Friends and Bonnie Raitt

My good friend bought tickets to see Bonnie Raitt and Marc Cohn (Walking In Memphis) in concert for my birthday, and I was so tired that day I really didn’t feel like going.  And even thought of coming up with an excuse to stay home but boy am I glad I didn’t!  Both opening and headlining act were AWESOME!  She did a cover of the INXS song “Need You Tonight” and she KILLED IT!!!!  She’s 72 years old and can still rock!!!   My friend Virginia had bought the tickets back in May and kept reminding me that we were going out for my birthday. 

I had a blast, well except for the fact that we were seated somewhat by the doors and stupid people kept coming and going including some 30-something chick in a tight black dress with a sequin belt and fringe purse.  She probably thought she looked hot but she looked like an idiot because if your pregnant one should avoid wearing a tight dress like that.  I’m not saying she was pregnant but her gut made her look like she was, not to mention she and her other stupid friend stepped on me, my friend Virginia, the guy next to me who I found out during change of musical sets, was/is a Border Patrol agent and his wife who is a doctor at the University of Hell where I use to work.  I can’t believe that I went out on a weeknight and seeing as it was my birthday the following day, I took the next day off so I didn’t have to wake up at 5am to get ready to go to work.   But when I returned on Friday I found this.

How they found out I LOVE chocolate is a mystery to me

I’m happy and glad I found a good place to work and small enough department where ego doesn’t get in the way and a boss that understands we are human. 

A Ph.D Maybe……….Nah.

I had mentioned in my last post that Karen the former, still coming to work occasionally, no filter director had mentioned that I should think about going back to school to get a Ph.D.  I scoffed at the idea because I’m already paying student loans and didn’t want to go into debt for get a degree I really don’t think I need.  But then on a virtual meeting with one of our support departments one of the girls mentioned that she is going to get her masters degree and that since she’s a university employee and she’s going to school for FREE!!!  I was like that the fuck, tell me more!  She explained that full time employees are eligible to attend the university for up to two classes every semester free of charge.  I thought about it and the idea lingered in the back of my head for like two days.  I could be a Ph.D, a doctor of philosophy in an area I’m passionate about.  Then reality hit, I am not motivated right now, literally I get home and sit on the couch until I move my ass to bed to go to sleep.  I haven’t run or gone swimming in over a month and I just seem to be suffering from burnout.    Getting into the swing of going back to school one) at my age and two) going home late every day and three) I’m just so done with college.  All of this solidified the fact that I don’t need a Ph.D to prove something to myself or to anyone else, not even Karen.  Who by the way said “If you want to move up in higher education you aren’t anything if you don’t have a Ph.D”  To which I replied, well maybe for people who have too much time on their hands maybe, but for others who have a fulfilling life that may not be at the top of their list.  I was being a snarky bitch of course because I don’t have much of a life right now due to my lack of motivation right now but hey, the bitch didn’t need to know that.

My Son, Fire Starting, Apple Flushing, Sarcastic Son

I’m sure by now y’all know I have three boys or should I say three adult children who are in various stages of their lives, college and professional careers.  But my two youngest sons who lived together in a rental home near my oldest son’s neighborhood decided that they needed to make some drastic decisions in order for them to get a bit more financially stable.  Both are needing newer, more efficient vehicles, both need to save for school and both are struggling to make ends meet with the rising prices of literally everything.  We had a family meeting and both are giving up the rental house and my youngest is moving in with his oldest brother and my middle son is moving in with me.  I’m ecstatic……………….NOT.   Look I love my kids and would give my life for them so I know how I sound but I’ve gotten so use to living alone I’m going to find it hard having a roommate now.  But I think this will also play in my favor too because if JMR decides to pay me a visit, my 6’4 320-pound son is there to gently tell him to go to hell.   Now mind you this isn’t the son who wants to put JMR in the hospital, that’s my baby, my 6’2, 227-pound baby who is also a weightlifter/bodybuilder.  

Anyway, I’m more than willing to help him because he does need to save for a new car.  Only now instead of paying $700 for rent, I’m only going to charge him $350.  When I mentioned this to him on Sunday he was caught by surprise, but I told him he wasn’t going to live with me for free, he’s going to pay rent, and one utility bill and chip in half for food.  Because I don’t really spend a lot on groceries because its just me and the cat.   If I want to eat and I’m hungry I’ll make myself something, if I don’t feel like cooking I eat a bowl of cereal, a handful of chips, a protein shake or a candy bar.  Hey I’m a fucking adult and I can eat whatever I want, right?  But now that he’ll be moving in, I have to think about buying groceries to make dinner and so he can take lunch to work.  This way he won’t spend money on takeout.  Well that’s my plan anyway.  I also gave him a time table as to how long he could stay with me, I have him a year and a half to save up for a car and get himself his own place.  I’m not being unreasonable I think, he’s a 33-year-old adult I think I’m being damned generous! Did I mention he has two cats?  My featured image is of Charlie when he found out we were going to have a “roommate.” Lets just say, he’s not pleased.

In celebration of this past birthday, I’m including with this song by Imani Coppola, called Legend of a Cowgirl.  Love this song, there’s a line in the song that says “I’m a woman on fire with a huge desire to be as good as any man.”  And that doesn’t mean the hot flashes that come with the “burnout.” What can I say, it’s true even though I’m suffering from burnout at the moment, which is my way of saying that I’ve fucking hit menopause.  Yep, my doctor indeed confirmed this after what seemed like endless blood tests.  Fuck this shit, burnout will not kill me dammit! But thanks to my great doctor, my hot flashes have gone away with some strategically placed hormones and now, I’m cool….literally!

Although I have felt a surge in sudden bursts of anger at times. But then again I’m not sure if its the “burnout” or just my personality….lmao.

Until next time……this is the Huntress, saying…”Don’t be a Moth Around a Dim Yellow Bulb, Be a Moth to a Flame, Make it worth the Burn!”

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