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Trying to Accept Things As They Are, and Being Grateful For What I Have

Yes, it’s still raining here…..

No, you’re not dreaming or on someone else’s blog, yes that is the title of my latest post.  In addition to being tired, for which I have an upcoming doctor’s appointment.  I’m also feeling a lack of, enthusiasm, energy or whatever else once calls just making it through their day and going home, then repeating it again.  Like the Lego Movie, except in my reality not everyone is awesome.

I was Voluntold To Help A Passive Aggressive Good Cop/Bad Cop

My dotted line boss, my VP volunteered me to help a director of a department she oversees.  I didn’t fight it because he seemed to be a very good, genuine guy.  That was mid-June, and now I want to fucking choke the motherfucker because he’s not what he seems to be.  He plays this very well meaning person to the higher ups, but behind the scenes he’s a complete asshole who doesn’t know what he’s doing.  You may remember him as Dr. Dangerous.  Well, he’s more like the Good Cop/Bad Cop from the Lego movie.  Yes this may very well be a Lego Movie themed post, but whatever, this dude is getting on my nerves!  AND I’m not being paid to help this douche bag of a director either, when I approached my VP about getting what we call an overload, she said no.   An overload is extra money we’ve paid others under my boss that take on extra duties while doing their jobs.  Some of the administrators under have received an extra $1,500 a month.  In addition to their six figure salaries.  And I can’t fucking can’t get an extra $500 for dealing with Dr. Douchebag?!?!

The dude is impossible to work with, he makes things harder than they should be, and he’s lost four people in his department who were competent, valuable, hardworking people!  Then he keeps the slackers, whiners and do-nothing asshole, bitch pricks! One which I’ve already butted heads with, I’m going to call her the Human Hemorrhoid, but in reality she physically looks like the poop emoji we all use, I’m not exaggerating with this. 

If I could show y’all a picture of her I would so you’d see she really does look like the poop emoji.  She’s a manager and has attempted to tell me what to do, boss me around and order me to do what she should be doing.  So after ignoring her nasty emails and such, she sent me another one and “told” me I had to answer her or else.  So I answered her, and I copied Dr. Douchebag and told her I didn’t work for her, and that I was helping Dr. Douchebag out at the behest of my boss.  I also explained that as a manager she needed to take care of those individuals under her, and I worked directly for the VP in charge of her boss, and I wasn’t a secretary or an admin.  I was the EA for the VP of Clinical Administration, and I don’t answer to anyone but my boss.  Which I pointed again, was her boss’s boss, and if she didn’t like it, she could take it up directly with her boss or mine.

I’m Supporting Four People And My Workload Is More While My Pay Is The Same

After I approached my VP about a potential overload and after she said no, I felt as though I’m just being taken advantage of.  And now I see her as President Business from the Lego Movie….yes, yes my post has taken on the Lego Movie theme, I know.

Maybe this is why I feel so tired, and that my lack of enthusiasm has been more and more apparent.  My plan is to do the bare minimum, yes I know how that sounds, and believe me it’s not like me to be a slacker in any way.  I’ve always prided myself in being a hard worker, and never, ever back down from a challenge.  But, being volunteered to help someone else without being asked isn’t exactly what I had in mind as far as a challenge.  I want the extra experience, I want to gain knowledge from my job so that I can eventually become a director or something.  So I don’t have to work at the drive through at Wendy’s until I’m 89 years old to pay off a house I bought at 52 years of age.

I’m Grateful For…

My therapist asked me what I was grateful for after our visit and my bitch session about my boss, the new duties and how I wasn’t being paid extra for all the work I’m doing and how others are getting an overload amount.  She sighed out loud as if annoyed and then I sighed even louder, that’s when she gave me a little black journal and asked me to write down every morning, twenty things I’m grateful for.  She said to fill up the journal and when I have, to bring it back to her.

So after the first few days of entries like….

I’m grateful for not being in jail

For not being arrested for road rage

For not killing the stupid lady in the checkout line at Albertsons for haggling over coupons

I started writing down things like……

Being grateful for God

For my boys

For the view of the mountain from my house

For my job (despite the drawbacks)

For my blogger friends

For my house

You know things like that, genuinely being grateful for the things I have and not keep wondering about the things I don’t.  Being grateful for a dinner get together tonight with cousins I haven’t seen in decades.  Six maternal cousins that I grew up with, that I’d see every weekend, played together, fought with, spent the night with and somehow we all lost touch when we grew up.  Being grateful for being alive and living to be 52 years old, technically not until October but we’re almost there so, whatever.

So until next time……this is the Huntress, saying…”Don’t be a Moth Around a Dim Yellow Bulb, Be a Moth to a Flame, Make it worth the Burn!”

Published by thehuntress915

My life has been a lot like the movie Bridget Jones Diary (the Hispanic version) constant comedic struggles and life lessons learned by way of personal experience. I've survived divorce and online dating debacles, so tag along for the ride and lets laugh together.

13 thoughts on “Trying to Accept Things As They Are, and Being Grateful For What I Have

  1. Life does have a tendency to wear us down….. but damn, there are so many legitimate things to complain about!
    Yes, we need to be grateful for the simple things. And if we look hard enough? They’re there. We just need to need look past the poop emoji people who always get in the way.
    😉

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  2. Illegitimi non carborundum, my friend! aka Don’t let the bastards get you down! I actually have that plaque in my office. I’m glad you’re still able to find things to be grateful for when there’s so many doo doo heads around! BTW, I’m grateful for you! Hugs, Mona

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  3. That is absolutely miserable. I totally understand wanting to scale back your usual over-achiever level of deliverables at work. The better you do in your job, the more duties they pile on you, and now that you’ve asked to be appropriately compensated for some of those extra duties and been denied, backing off on being a rock star in those extra duties is 100% appropriate. Doing an adequate job will still get it done, won’t kill you in the process, and maybe they’ll reconsider either (a) paying you appropriately, or (b) shifting those extra duties elsewhere. I’m sorry you’re dealing with this–it’s demoralizing, and I guarantee it’s factoring into your malaise. I hope it’s resolved sooner, rather than later!

    On the flip side, this made me roar:

    “So after the first few days of entries like….

    I’m grateful for not being in jail

    For not being arrested for road rage

    For not killing the stupid lady in the checkout line at Albertsons for haggling over coupons”

    And this is exactly why we love you.

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    1. It’s hard to try NOT to do what’s almost imbedded into your DNA, as a hard worker. But, when I don’t get paid for it, how is someone supposed to react right? But why should I be the one to do an awesome job when everyone else here coasts it just to get paid. I just bought a house and I need my job in the worst way, but it’s so hard to stay positive in an environment like this. No, it isn’t the worst job in the world and I can endure a lot of the stupid shit. But its so very wrong for others to get paid way more for doing next to nothing. While others get more work and less pay. Ugh, I need a vacation.

      Well thanks Heather, I appreciate that you appreciate my sadistic sense of humor, lol.

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  4. There’s nothing worse than disliking a job that you spend so many hours at. I’m lucky that I was able to switch to something that made me happy for the last 6 years. I love your positivity at the end, and of course, the new house and your boys are so important. Has your book arrived yet?

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    1. Thanks Suzanne, it’s hard to believe a year ago I believed this was the best job I’d ever had. How quickly things change with a couple of bad decisions by others and your stuck with people you don’t like.

      I’m so glad you were able to find something you loved doing the last couple of years, now your onto retirement!! I haven’t gotten my book yet, I’m anxiously waiting 😬

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  5. I guess I’ll need to watch the Lego Movie someday.

    My final job was a sucky position. Nothing like that taste in your mouth when you realize it must be faced again. Booze with my coffee was tempting. The position was remote; everything was done through phones and emails. They’d have parties. I’d be all, “Yea! Go, team.” Sure. Fuck that. In addition, I’d max out my pay level. Could not earn any pay raises because your pay is based on your geographic region. So, no pay raises for you, Michael. Great incentive, right?

    Sad face that your position has gone down the crapper within a year. You playing the lottery yet? I know they don’t recommend it for retirement planning but it’s better to buy some scratchers and give yourself some hope rather than settling into growing fantasies of, “How shall I kill these people?” (No, I never went there. The job sucked but the people weren’t that bad.)

    There are many things you’re grateful to have and be. Hope you include that you’re grateful that you have a deadly sense of humor and that you’re intelligent. Some people don’t have that shit going for them. I enjoy both of them in your posts.

    Worse comes to worse, just start imagining everyone at work without their clothes. Then start imagining who would play them in the movie.

    Cheers, Michael

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    1. Thank you for giving me a good laugh today, I needed it. I keep telling myself I should buy some lotto tickets, maybe I’ll get lucky. Maybe I won’t, but if I don’t try then I’ll never know right? My job has gotten bad in the last year, and it’s all a bunch of stupid shit too, like no communication from our so-called bosses. We had some important people come from the main campus, big wigs you know? But did any of us fucking know? No, no we didn’t because our direct line boss thinks she doesn’t have to tell us important shit like that. And President Cutie Pie doesn’t know about all the important shit that she doesn’t do.

      Anyway, I should start imagining who is going to play who in the movie. I mean Liam Neeson can play President Cutie Pie. But then Roseanne Barr can play Fake Supervisor, they act and almost sound alike. For the two impostors, I think Anjelah Johnson can play Impostor #1, and maybe Tina Fey can play Impostor #2. They are both female comedians’ but what better way to have them portrayed? Impostor #2 does actually work but she looks more like Tina Fey, and Impostor #1 should be played by a comedian because all the shit she doesn’t do is almost comedic anyway.

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      1. Great casting! Lookin’ forward to that one.

        Yes, you can read in your posts that communications blows in a big way there. The dysfunction grows. The spiral around the drain commences.

        Get that lottery ticket. Cheers

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