Those words definitely ring true, I haven’t had the urge to write at all. I don’t know if it’s been because my new job has kept me busy writing for business purposes, which lets face it can get a little dry. Or because I don’t think I’m a good writer in general. But the fact that I’ve lacked the interest in writing is scary to me because ever since I was little all I’ve ever wanted to do was write. My ambition, like all wannabe writers, was to write the great American novel. Okay that’s a stretch but I do or did want to write my very first book by the time I hit 50, and well that’s in the rearview mirror now.
So at this point I’m not sure what is going on? I’ve also lost the urge to run, but as much as I’ve fought with myself to just get home and lie on the couch like a slug and eat Rocky Road ice cream right out of the container, I’ve still managed to make myself run my 5K or three miles a day. I’ve slowed down in my time too, but that’s another story entirely. The main reason for me pushing myself to run is because, I don’t want to get fat again. I’m amazed at myself that I’ve actually gotten to where I can run three entire miles without passing out, falling off the treadmill, laying on my bedroom floor covered in sweat my limbs twisted and contorted as I reach for the bag of Oreo’s on my dresser. Don’t judge, doesn’t everyone keep Oreo’s on their dresser?
When I began my weight loss journey, I weighed 202 pounds and I do not want to get back there again, so that is the motivation, however faded or misguided it may be I refuse to go back to being that heavy. But I’ve also realized that I’ve come a very long way health wise. I can now run for three miles straight without stopping, falling, passing out, or looking like Elaine from Seinfeld when she’s dancing (that’s what I look like when I run) and I finish in less than 30 minutes. Again my motivation for running, as mentioned is to stay healthy. My lack of motivation for writing is something totally foreign to me. So I don’t know where this is coming from, or maybe I just really don’t feel like writing anymore or maybe just for the time being. This is my short and not so sweet post for this week.
This is the Huntress, stay safe and wear your mask! COVID is NOT A HOAX!
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I have plenty of moments where I don’t feel like writing. Mostly it’s because I can’t think of anything that I think I can turn into anything, but I’m finding that when I do, a lot of times, I can’t make myself type out the words. It’s weird, so I hope you’ll be able to find your motivation again.
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Thank you Bill, I think you may be right. I think I just need to write to see what comes and then follow that lead.
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If you’re not feeling it, don’t do it. There’s nothing more depressing and intimidating than a blank page waiting to be filled. This does not however give you a hall pass on blogging.
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Lol, thanks River for those very sage words of advice. I have so much to blog about with my new and soon to be former co-workers. But actual writing (serious writing) I’m struggling at the moment.
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The great path to writing? Apathy. Right. Apathy. If you do not care what you say, how it is interpreted, or whose feelings it may hurt, it becomes a lot more enjoyable, and no need to edit!
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Very well put indeed!
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Everybody goes through a slump, don’t worry, inspiration will give you a good buttkick soon!. But wow–look at you run! I wish I could do that!
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Thanks Suzanne! Ugh I hope so. As for running, that seems to be easier for me right now. And so many people I tell about my running accomplishment say “Oh, that’s great….I hate running.” So I guess I’m doing something a lot of people hate, lol.
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I lost a lot of my motivation and drive when I hit menopause. I’m barely running now compared to my previous years of running ultras . But I think 2020 has everybody messed up in one way or other . Hang in there!
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Thanks PK, I’m sure 2020 has a lot to do with how everyone feels. At least right now, running is what’s keeping me half way sane.
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Perhaps the world is just not very inspiring right now.
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Alas, Jason it is not 🤨
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Writing has been difficult for me, too. I keep telling myself I’ll try harder but I just don’t have it in me. Maybe later…
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I think it has to do a lot with the current social situation. It’s depressing and since it seems to only be getting worse it’s hard to write about anything that isn’t about politics or the COVID situation. Ugh, I’m so tired of all of this…
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I agree. Nothing but politics and covid. I’ve said all I can/want to say about any of it. There’s definitely not much going on in MY life to write about. 😵
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This year has been such a drag for everyone–we’ve all had to pivot so many times, none of knows which direction we’re headed anymore. We’re exhausted, and craving some good old-fashioned normalcy again. Who said you have to write on a specific schedule? Give yourself permission to take a writing vacation to rustle up some new material–stuff that fires you up so much that you can’t stop the words from pouring out of your fingers. Not a single one of us will judge you for it either…we’ve all been there.
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